Babies, Work and Rent...Oh JOY!!

So I haven't posted in some time, but that's because so much has been going on that I've just been busy. However, I found out some news the other day that made me start to think and what not so let us talk about those thoughts.

First off. Babies. My cousin Steph who is 6 months younger then me is preggers. Let me just say WOW. Everyone, cept my Auntie and Uncle Amanda and Jed though I'd be the first, everyone knows how much I love kids and want one but I really think they're the only ones who thought I'd be smart enough to WAIT to have them. The reason I say WAIT is because it's family tradition to be knocked up well before being ready, in my family only two members have been married BEFORE the baby. The funny thing is those two...well...yeah are kinda the crazy sorta unstable ones of the family. Everyone else though was pregnant in high school, before high school or just after, cept my mom, she'd dropped out and got her GED but she was still 19 and my father was an asshole, cheated on her and left before she'd even reached her three month marker. I am in no way ready for a new baby. I want Tommy and I to be married, and both have good jobs, and have a place of our own before we even think about a mini us running around. None of those things are even close to happening. Sure we've talked about it, but are we ready for marriage? no, not even close. Our relationship is still...Well new I guess is what you'd say, we just moved in together a few months ago and though we've been dating for almost a year living together is a whole new thing. Besides, we have Makayla and she's more than enough to handle, plus I think she has a right to be an only child for awhile. Anyways though, Steph is preggers, and that got me thinking about how many people I know that are right now. My best friend Tori is 4 months along, my other friend Jessica is about the same, and then my other friend Ashley is about to pop. Tori, Ashley and I all went to school together and were in the same grade, and Jessica is only a few years older than me. It's all kind of shocking. I mentioned to my mom that I wanted a baby, just in passing and she kinda went off ha ha, reminding me I'm not ready and so on. Is is wrong though that I am kind of...Jealous of Steph....I know I shouldn't be but in a way I am.

Anyhow, onto work. I WANT A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I haven't got one yet and it sucks....That is all.


Well, the needing a job thing kind of ties in with the rent. When we first moved in the place seemed perfect for us and the lady we're renting from seemed really chill and nice but since moving in it's taken a whole 360 and things have become...Well awkward. I do like this place, the area is prefect for us, but Tommy and I thinking about moving. We found another lady renting out her spare room who I thought was awsome, she's a bit goth 23 (so MUCH closer to our age) and well we just got along. The room would only be 350 a month (where as we pay 500) and comes with everything we pay for right now. She's going to call us on Tuesday to let us know. It's a thought anyways, with money being tight it'd be nice to have a little less needing to be paid. We'll see though.